inuman na, inuman na

this is one of my favorite mantra's. specially after coming home from work on a Friday. I usually make sure that there's some drink around and some chips, then we start with our karaoke sessions to let off some steam ... aahhh... the joys of life... singing your lungs out as the words start to be more meaningful after every glass finished... I am a certified lasinggera... my friends testify to that as they are always the first ones to offer me a drink... then a little later, they'd be the first to tease me coz I'd turn red as tomato, the drunker I get... but I don't mind the brand coz I enjoy drinking... this is the only bad habit I have...

before, when I was in Geneva, my drinking buddy and best friend, Silja and I would be in the bars at around 9 pm in the evening and we'll drink till around 11:30 pm. Being students and having no cars, we'll catch the bus then to the disco and when we're there, the dance floor is ours till 4 am. Afterwards we'll go to Corso where we'll have some breakfast and go down slowly to earth. By 5:30 am, the first bus home comes and by 6 am I am in bed... wahahaha... just as the birds are starting to sing from the trees. whatta life! those were the golden years for me... living the life of a carefree teenager... sobrang bloom ako!!! masyado kasi akong "manang" when I was younger... hehehe...

but much as I enjoy drinking, its not my life. this is what I'd like to explain to those who frown at drinking or if I'm allowing someone younger to drink. I think the most important part is letting them have some fun but also teach them responsible drinking. that is, making sure before you drink that you're in safe company and try to be aware at which point you are... tipsy, drunk, too drunk... and stop when you feel you're loosing control. For myself, I only enjoy drinking to the point of being tipsy but I always have my wits with me although its kinda hanging loose... nyehehe... tipsy is different from totally drunk... I specially don't like drinking and puking... I've had my share of toilet moments singing "TEQUILAAAAAA"

my current favorite drink is Xuxu, a mix of strawberry, dash of lemon, ice and vodka... slurp! sarap! I also dig caipirinha, which reminds me of Recife, Brazil... bwehehehe... I was a former fan of vodka orange and gin tonic... I also love red wine like Nederburg and Gallo, and a penchant for white wines for cheese coz they're sweet.

I drink coz I like having carefree moments, just being happy and naughty. I don't do it to escape problems and nor is it a necessity in my life... enjoying it but not lording it...

How about you?

love nga naman...

once again we were watching Sharon's show and they were talking about couples and love in general. there was one guy who got busted so many times. they were asking him how he courted the girls coz maybe there was something wrong with his strategy. so he showed them and they were laughing coz it was so lame. know why? coz he was starting with "your eyes are like stars in the sky..."

ngek! siguro it would work nung panahon nina Paraluman pero sa ngayon, as in sobrang luma na noon at payo nga nila sa guy, magbago sya ng strategy.

sabay tanong sa akin ni Pabs... "Do you have a map?"

and I said "Why?"

"Coz I'm lost in your eyes!"

ay pucha! nakana ako!!! ang corny!!!

kite

yesterday, i watched some past episodes of Sharon's new show. there was one on mothers and daughters and the guests were Ruffa and Annabelle Rama, and Danica and Dina Bonnevie. It was very touching and emotional because they were talking about the relationship that they have with each other.

one particular part was very touching and true. they were asked what could the mothers say about raising a child. I would not be able to quote Dina but she said something like this.

Raising a child is like flying a kite. First you make the kite strong, stable and balanced. Once its ready you let got and let it fly and you watch from a distance but you maintain the string. That way, when you see the kite falling you tug it a bit to make it rise again. It was a beautiful and truthful insight. I wish I would be able to do the same for my children.

cardful of memories

last monday, some friends were at home discussing the church ceremony with us because we are going to help them with it. my hubby was showing them photos of our civil wedding and from the box came one particular card. my hubby absent-mindedly gave it to me. it was the card his mother wrote to us for our wedding. the wedding she missed and the last card she'd write. and looking at it, i saw one little phrase... "Jay, mahalin mo si Jang"... and my heart suddenly ached and my eyes started misting... wow! such a powerful emotion in one second... the shift from nonchalance to a deep ache was sudden... up until now, we're still touched by this wonderful woman.

mommy carmen moved already in Berlin when I came in jay's life. but she was the first most welcoming and warm person in the family. she was of course makulit but she's a Mom and its one of their job descriptions. she visited us from time to time and only briefly but I've learned to respect and love her a lot. I remember watching "Anak" with her and we were crying together as we watch this film that was so relevant to our lives, specially to her who had left her three older children behind to follow her husband together with her 3 youngest broods. I remember how she could cook so quickly for a lot of people and how she always remembers every occasion and was a constant reminder to us all to keep the contact. I remember how protective she was of her children but mostly forgiving to people who did her wrong.

I read a book about reincarnation and I found it beautiful. In a gist, it says that souls take on different lives to learn from the different lessons it teaches. that the soul cannot be damaged and that in the end, everything is not as hard and bad as it seem. I'd like to think that she left because she had learned the things that she needed to know and teached what needed to be learned from her. and that she has awakened from the dream of life.